my babbles

School

2009-11-19T03:29:00.001-08:00

GAH!!!
This week is cui week sia...
walao...
all projects need to finish doing by this week sia...
either this week or next week...
dammit...
dammit...

i'm depressed...
again...
i wanna go out...
with her especially...
she brightens up my life no matter what happens to me...
she brings me to heaven when i'm down and can't pull myself out...

oh my dear darling...
can i go out with you someday?
pls? <3~

I'm afraid...

2009-11-10T06:26:00.000-08:00

i wanna be with you...
i truely, truely do...
i wanna be that guy that brings your wonderful smile around...
to be the guy that keeps you laughing...
to be there for you when you're down...
to support you in times of your greatest need...

but i'm too afraid my immaturity will cost me our closeness...
i dun want things between us to break...
the way we are now puts me in a very comfortable position...
the thought of loving you nvr crossed my mind...
but now my heart longs for it...
calling you my dear, is different from calling other girls my dear...
for others, it just means... my dear friend... as all friends are...
but you... who is truely precious to me...
when i say my dear, i long for you to be mine...
i can nvr be calm around you...
i'm always wanting to make you smile and stay happy...
i wanna make you so happy that in your time with me...
i make you forget your wordly sadness...
even if just for a while...
even if its just an illusion i cast on you...
i wanna make you feel like the happiest and luckiest girl in the whole wide world...

i really love you hon...
i'll nvr give up on you...
no matter what...
only if you tell me to my face...
that you have no feelings whatsoever for me...
then will i break down...and possibly try to will myself to live without you...
and cope with nvr being able to have you as my own...

I miss you

2009-11-07T23:25:00.000-08:00

Hmmm... Next year...
I'll be one of the bigger powers in NCC...
In PRSS, i'm the only CLT left...
dunno if shima is still on or not...
Next year...
The mark of a new training regime for the part C next year...
I'm Kinda disappointed in the boys unit...
My girls...
Well... The girls have always been able to fend for themselves...
So I'm not too worried for them...
Hahaa... A certain baby is scared of my plan for next year...
Note * Hon, i wun be so intense on the girls...

But next year, It will be a complete change how i take control in PRSS...
Next years part 'C' will get it from me...
mainly i wun be in action...
but if i raise my head to actually take part in the training...
They. Will. D.I.E...
short and sweet isn't it?

oh... and apparently...
I got my baby pwincess addicted to my fav k-pop music too...
=3
awesome songs man...

When things were finally looking up...

2009-10-23T04:36:00.000-07:00

yea...
it really was...
then start of school...
man...
it's been shit for me ever since...
nonstop bad luck and stupid things happen to me...
and smack in the middle of the week...
i got my heart broken...
sweet right?

hey... hon...
if you're reading this...
dun mind me kay...
i need to let off some excess anger built up inside of me...
and i may end up being severely or not so severely injured...
at any rate...
i have to bend a certain promise of ours...

144 hours of open eyes

2009-10-16T09:56:00.000-07:00

144 hours that i haven't slept...
i can't sleep coz i'm either with Dee<3...
or hanging out with some of my other frenz...

Mon - 8am...
started with picking Dee<3 up at the airport and her dad...
business trip...
but Dee<3 got time off for me...
aww... so sweet of her...

Tues
Went jogging and lan till like 1300 hours...
Spent the rest of the day with Dee<3...
nuff said...
Did i forget to mention i nearly fell asleep here...
But my dear playfullr picked at my wounds and peeled it open to keep me awake to accompany her through the night coz she can't sleep...
oh well... things i do for the people i love...

Wed
what happened here...
oh yea... spent the morning with Dee<3...
sent her back to her hotel to accompany her dad for a meeting...
then i went to celebrate Zul 18 and how guan 17 bday!
woohoo...
it was kinda lame... but what the heck la...
with me around and troublemaker kage...
things can become fun somehow...
oooh... nearly forgot...
my faggot of a cuz caught me at like 3am when i was hanging out with Dee<3...
to make us accompany him through the night...

Thurs
went jogging in the morn...
then went to penin to look for jeans and a game for me to play la...
i'm bored of my games already...
but in the end.. no games bought but i bought a pair of skinny jeans and a jacket...
then i hung out at zul's place...
went with him to meet some of his frens and had dinner...
tried my bloody hardest to make him forget about a certain girl who he shudn't even care about bcoz of the things she has done to him...
i think i succeeded some...
then hung out with Dee<3 till it was time for her to fly back home to london...

Frid
morn... had a lil chit chat sms with my dear lil blur chubby baby pwincess...
then went to McRitchie for a run...
I was so bloody tired sia... when running then i realised just how tired i was...
For the first time in my McRitchie running... i couldn't make up for the extra one km the boys had to run...
The girls still arrived at the end point earlier than me...
ah hell... I'm tored... its an excuse... not a good excuse... but it wun happen again...
then i had work from 8 - 11...
lost my mp3 in the damn taxi...
hopefully i can get it back...
dunno how la...
ouh... and congrats to my dear lil blur chubby baby pwincess...
she finally knows where i work...
congrats chubby... =)

shhh... i'm thinkiing

2009-10-12T07:12:00.000-07:00

Once i rmbr what happened on zul's bday celebration to perfection...
i'll tell y'all kkay?
be sure to tell your frenz...
coz it was one heck of a bday...
more fun and crazy than any that could have been done in or outof sch uniform....
unbeatable in terms of highness and insanity...
until i rmbr fully...
cheerios...
btw...

Happy bday Zul and (upcoming) china man!

This time... I really am scared

2009-10-08T08:10:00.000-07:00

If all goes well...
I will not die by the end of the week...
If anything goes wrong...
Well...
At least no one will miss me...
I have successfully made my friends suffieciently happy with me...
Well...
If not, then i beg your forgiveness now...
And hope i haven't been too much of a pain in the ass...
I really did want to tell her i love her sooo sooo much...
But i guess that secret dies with me now...
If i get prosecuted...

damn... shud never have started getting melded into this hacking situation... now... i'll die a sinner... never having learnt to repent fully... i just hope you all remain happy... and positive about life... just glad i was never significant in anyone's life... hahaa... just in case...

fare thee well my friends...
and i wish for your everlasting happiness while you live...

My Issue, Our life

2009-10-03T11:13:00.000-07:00

What the hell were you thinking...
I can't live with anyone who disrespects my mom...
My mom is my life...
She has taken care of me all my life...
While I only know you for 4 years...
What the FUCK makes you think i'll choose you over her?!?

Go lick your wounds...
Mend your broken heart...
I'm sorry i was cruel...
But face it love...
I will NOT tolerate any form of rudeness to my mom...
No matter who the hell you are...
I WILL hit you in the face...
I WILL insult you down to your ancestors...
Don't even think of fist fighting me...
I'm small... but I know how to take down people bigger than me...

Remember this lesson learnt my dear...
I will forgive you this once...
But NEVER again will you commit this mistake...

and hon.. i really am sorry...
forgive me for hurting you so badly...
it may take you a while or you may not even want to forgive me...
but i am sorry... well and truely...

RAYA event!!!

2009-10-01T01:00:00.000-07:00

need i say more?
actually yes... so...
er hem...
okay okay...
we all were supposed to meet at Baraq O Bammes house at 1030...
but then eh... when me and hadi got there...
only got mummy ayu waiting... (wait... i tell story)
and baraq of coz...
so we waited...
and waited... (bawah block tau)
because mummy said "tak manis" kalau naik then she alone girl...
dia ngan dia punya "tak manis"...[oops... jangan marah ye]
anyways... next was fiaz, then faris...
within 1100 dah sampai...
and then three girls walked in... aidah, sab and lisah...
and of coz... mummy ayu got angry...(main main je)
so we went up to wait for the rest...
so when all is said and done, everyone arrived at like...
er... 1200? was it? i dunno...
all i know was that 1215 we had finished and went over to ayu's house plak...

there, we discussed our route...
ayu was our like... timekeeper/planner/idk what else = mummy...
took the group pic...
well... all guys and all girls pic...
no combined yet...
and hadi made one comment which was kinda true...
i was responsible for finishing a lot of kueh...
(not just ayu house eh... faiz house i finished TWO tupperware of kueh)
anyways...
so the route was...
Baraq, Ayu, Hadi(group photo), Faris Zaki(watch spongebob)...
er...
[travelling](spam travel pics)
er...
whose house was next???
oh ya...
Martin house, sab was so... nervous? idk... she was diff... hahaa...
then Yusuf house... apparently his name gets pronounced as you-suf... mummy... mummy...
then my house... pitstop... eat and drink...
then we were supposed to go to Aziz's house...
but cannot... =(
so... instead... we headed over to Faiz's house...(me & yul spam the kueh and keropok)
then we went to Faiz Dugong house... dinner of rendang and bread...
sedap gilzzz i tell you...
so it was kinda dark by now... eight... next destination, yul grandma house and yul house...
and we were supposed to go to places like fad kaka house in pasir ris and aidah and zah house in sengkang...
oh ya... ami-gay and yusuf dunno go where... then ami-gay rendevous with us at faiz's house...

did i also forget to mention that baraq wore mummy ayu's high heels from faiz's house to faiz dugong house?
that was seriously O-M-G... he was sweating like mad dog when we reach dugong's house...
actually i feared more for ayu's heels than for Baraq himself...
Baraq hardcore... can take it... but the heels... diff story...

anyways... it was late... and khuzaimah had to go home first...
so she left, so quietly... we didn't realise till we did a head count...
so we went to yul's grandma's house...
hung out there... mummy ayu also went off for a while...
well... why she went off... ask her la...
so she met us at yul's grandma place...
then we went over to yul's place...
and in the lift down uh... faris...
i wun paoto you la... kay? bros for life... hahaa...

met yul's bro's group along the way...
as amirul said... they were an unknown bunch of scary people...
i agree... i agree... till i found out they were friends...
anyways... we went to yuls's place till like 1030...
then mummy decided it was too late to be going anywhere else...
and everyone was tired anyways... so we went our separate ways...
pics uh... look for it at facebook yea?
if you want a good quality copy of the pic...
ask me direct... by msn or whatever...
i WILL give you one copy of whichever pic you ask for...

i just...

2009-09-28T05:11:00.000-07:00

i wanted to get a bike...
cause biking really makes me feel just so free of my worldly desires...
it makes feel so happy to cruise along the streets...
wait... not happy... no...
i ain't easily happy anymore...
but i feel so damn free...
but i can't get a bike...
my mom feels too heavily to my safety...
she says i can always take a bus...
its SAFER...

yeah... yeah... i agree...
but taking a bus is so confining...
it makes feel like a bird trapped in a cage...
or KoKo in his cage...
KoKo bites, him in the cage is safety for everyone...
i just want to be free of my worldly desires...

mom...
for once...
can't you let me do what i want without restricting my life to confinement?
i've had to hide a lot of things from you because of your life rules that i swore to abide by...
i don't wanna hide anymore things from you...
pls... let me do what i want for once...
no restrictions...
no rules...
and i swear i will nvr come back dead...

Oh God... No...

2009-09-23T10:47:00.000-07:00

...
...
...
...

Hackers... are so... irritating...
Damn...
I'm wasting my life erasing them...
From my lappy at least...
But today...
I met a hacker...
It was a girl...
A sweet girl...
She hacked into my lappy...
And I found her looking through my pictures folder...
I laid traps in my network...
She fell right into one...

Guess what...
It was this hacker that taught me how to make this trap...
She was the very same person who taught me how to avoid these traps...
God be willing...
She'll learn her lesson next time...
And guess what...
My hacker today...
Her name is Syafira Amareena... Ira, for short...
Sister to Deeyana Amareena...
Twins and both my lovers and teachers...
(They're seventeen too dammit... I dun go beyond a +3/-3yr age gap)

Yawn...
Now to undo what other hackers have done to my network...
Damn... Dee...
She taught me how to make my network...
And she breaks it all over again for me to redo...
Lucky for her i like her too muc to be angry with her...

Today, an innocent person asked me a question...
She asked...
"What if one day i go crazy?"
"and I become your hacker"
Something like that... I forgot what she said exactly...
Hahaa...
I can nvr imagine her sitting in front a screen and hacking into my network...
It just doesn't fit...
It's like imagining me as a fat boy...
It won't match...
But you nvr know...
Bur actually i dunno what i'm catching hackers for...
I got nothing to hide...
Oh well... I'm bored and am in desperate need to divert my attention...
So what the heck la...

I'm bored...
I'm bored...
I'm bored...
I'm bored...
I'm bored...
I'm bored...
I'm bored...
I'm bored...
I'm bored...

-log off-

Reflections of the year past

2009-09-21T05:47:00.000-07:00

Hari Raya...
a day of festivities for the Malay population...
Our day of celebration after a month of fasting...
The day when all cousins either congregrate to a single house to see one another again...
And we all ask for forgiveness from one another...

I have never cried more during Hari Raya in any other years than this year alone...
hahaa...
All my aunts and uncles think so highly of me...
They think i'm such a good boy for being so filial to my mom and the aunt who i'm closest with...
They think of me as such a good boy for having made the family proud...
Son of the youngest child yet the most outstanding...
Hari raya never fails to make me cry when all is said and done...
I cry myself to sleep knowing that the whole family, aunts and uncles, my nephews and nieces, expect me to be someone successful...
I never know what to say back at them...
I am stumped...
By their expectations...
By the fact I never seem to fail in their eyes...
By the fact that my every success brings some glory to the family name...

I dun deserve such a warm family...
I dun deserve such a supporting family...
True, what they believe of me does exists within me...
But what if they knew of the fights i've been through?
The unfilial side of me that not even my mother knows of...
The side she will never believe of me...
I tell my friends some...
I keep the rest to myself...
But my family must never know...
They would weep...

I've really worn my body down like mad...
I knocked out today...
For the first time in ages...
I knocked out for 16 hours straight...
From midnight last night till 1600 today...
First time in ages, i didn't dream of her...
First time in ages, i dreamt my peaceful dream...
Just soaring through the universe...
As free as light which travels through the void...
But when i woke up...
I thought to myself...
I'm not gonna be depressed anymore...
Sure, I am sad she belongs to another now...
Sure, I am stressed with a lot of expectations riding on my shoulders...

But I'm gonna be better, stronger and hardier than ever before...
What doesn't kill me will make me stronger...
Don't expect a lot of smilies from me...
Don't expect too much laughter from me...
I'll be friendly... But not too warm...
At least not to ladies...
Not that i hate ladies...
I just don't wanna hurt again...

P.S no... i haven't forgotten, nor will i forget, how much i loved you hon...

This is a VERY Bad Symptom

2009-09-11T10:17:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep anymore...
Well... Not more then three hours at any rate...
When i close my eyes, i see you crying your heart out because of a broken heart...
But once i wake up to reality and find myself tearing...
I nvr could bear the thought of my lovely dear crying...
A different sight greets me...
You will forever be smiling and laughing with another guy whom you love...
It breaks me... It most certainly depresses me...
But i nvr want you to worry for me...
So don't worry best beloved...
I will smile and carry on with life no matter how broken i am inside...
Even if i'm crying of jealousy and sadness inside, you will nvr see my tears...
You will never see my frown...
I will seek to do things that will distraact me from this depression in me...
But though i will never heal from this memory...
You will forever only see my smile...
I promise you this...
Now...
Forever...
Till my death bed will my promise never never break...
For you, i will smile...
For you, i will laugh...
Just so you can have a peace of mind for my mental capacity...

P.S
-> Sorry i'm too late to say this hon... But i really do love you oh so much... So much so i will never fall in love again... :')

Seems Like...

2009-09-05T06:55:00.000-07:00

Each time I befriend someone...
I always have to remember the fact that...
No matter what...
Guy or Girl...
This friendship will not be one I won't hurt myself with...

Its lonely being me...
No siblings to love...
No dad to fuss over sports with...
An unreasonable when angry mum to love...
A family that accepts no failures from me...
I dunno who to talk to...
I just wanna talk to someone...
Get some advice...
Someone who will pry from me the feelings i keep inside that harm me...
Or at least feel how its like... To have someone listen to my aches and pains...
But then again... When people wanna listen...
I always don't want to trouble them with my burdens...
After all... My goal is to spread joy and happiness to the world...
Even if this goal would cost me my life which i know it will eventually...

I wanna fall in love...
Ira and Dee... When i think about it...
Everything between us seems so...
Superficial...
Sure... Feelings were involved...
But... It didn't feel like anything special between us...
It was just loving for the sake of making life a tiny bit better...
My heart most aches now when the three girls i loved most...
Are dating other guys and are happy...
I'm happy for them and wish them all the best... Honestly, I do...
But then again... I am just a kid...
Who will I kid, if i say it doesn't hurt me one single bit?

Hah... Look at me...
Babbling on and on like a fool...
Like the kid i was, am and always will be...
If there's one thing that i've always been certain about...
Is that I was born and bred an Observer of life...
I am not fine with it...
But i will live this way...
Because no matter what... I will not deny...
Seeing people smile because of something I did or say...
Is what lights up my life at the end of the day...

The Wonderful World of What If's...

2009-09-01T18:54:00.000-07:00

-Receiving Transmission-

it is a wonderful world of imagination...
the place where you think bout what could have happened...
where you imagine what wll happen if you did this or did that...
a place of regret, fear and happiness for some...

recently, i found myself stuck here...
i dunno why...
i just began asking what if questions...
and found myself stuck in a nvr ending cycle...
i am afraid to take the next step now where my heart is involved...
my fear of mistakes...

(oh hey... i finally found what i fearful of...)

damn... i hate this feeling of uncertainty...

being sure of myself was the one thing that i had liked about me...

but now... i'm hesitant to do so many things involving matters of the heart...

and i can't break out of this stupid cycle of asking what if...

and i fear... i fear like crazy...

i dun wanna compromise any relationship i have made...

girls that i love... i became too close (i dun care if its one sided) to them...

i keep asking what if i went into a relationship with em and failed....

i'd so hate for it to be awkward between us...

damn...

-End Transmission-

The Art of War... A Beautiful Art...

2009-08-25T18:24:00.000-07:00

the art of war is something not easily mastered...
if you actually try to master it by playing massive amounts of RTS's...
you will find yourself losing to the wonderfully scripted AI most of the time if you're not focused or not fast enough...
in a war, be sloe or lose your focus, you LOSE
in game, it means nothing much of course... just a loss...
but if you lose a war in real life... that is not something you want happening...
anyway... here are some cool ass pics that i took from some of the in-game wars i have been conducting...

i dunno... it just looked cool...
if you can't see, i put the leader infront facing the troops to give a pre-battle speech

the war itself... ain't that chaotic coz i already killed all the troops

marines must always be fit for battle huh?

. . .

2009-08-12T16:56:00.000-07:00

sometimes...
i just really wish i was like ryu hayabusa...
he's so emotionless and strong...
powerful and deadly...
he's cool... and people don't hate him for being violent...

i'd really wanna kill someone like this...

or just plain chop them in half with a big ass scythe...

damn... he's just too cool...

3... 2... 1... 0...

2009-08-06T02:21:00.000-07:00

i am not going to say anything anymore...
you decide for yourself whats good for you and whats bad...
i am tired of trying to advise and people dun listen...
so guess what...
i quit... go look for another advisor...
i will shut up and lose myself to the shadows...

. . .

2009-08-04T19:42:00.000-07:00

this day... last week...
i tot my workload would lessen...
it got higher and higher...
and now i wun even be online much...
i have night lessons...(gee... thanks boss... baka...)
i have my game character to fully ptogram and finish designing...(yeay to long hair...)
and i exams in a couple of weeks time...
two camps this month...
wait... three actually...
two NCC and one IITSC camp...

ah... i'm overworking again...
geez... i dun get enuff sleep...
ah well... if there's one thing i rmbr of my old man...
he told me, "you can sleep when you die"
well o well... my suit's ready...
just waiting for my energy to go completely zero...
and i'll just fade away...

its the thing i do best...

hahaa

i dunno whats going on anymore...

2009-08-01T08:47:00.000-07:00

i.... am so clueless nowadays...
i wonder around aimlessly and hope to be given work to do...
but no one's talking to me...
the twins are busy, i understand...
and everyone else has their lifes to attend to...
i wanna help out... but no one's asking me to...
i'm afraid if i help un invited... i may end up doing the wrong thing...

damn... i can't hang out under my block alone anymore...
ow... it hurts... i think i got in three fights today...
an all high time record sia...
but i think i broke my ribs... it hurts like insane siao...
huh... tmr go jog with horo and hadi...
long time since i jogged... glad i'm picking up again...
i could use the weight loss...
and the guys do make me laugh so very easily...
i just hope...
i get well soon...
this sadness is killing me...
the loneliness bores into me like a drill...
i just wanna see her and go out with her one more time...
one last memory...
before i start to decide...
whether i live or die in this world of madness...

just wiished i had enough courage to actually ask her out on a date...
pffft...
*skulks in the shadows*

why do i...

2009-07-30T06:05:00.000-07:00

its weird...
i... just can't seem to feel again...
i dunno whats wrong with me...
i... lost... my joy? again?

holy crap...
i learned to celebrate victory in FPS in the most...
unemotional of ways...
you are dead. not big surprise.
huh... damn...
whats wrong with me...
my happiness is just... draining...
more and more...
day by day...
as each memorable event comes...
my smile starts to turn...
i dunno...

it hurts to smile...
it hurts to laugh...
but i dun wanna frown...
whats up with me...
damn... what am i?
a machine?

"oh you got 10% of happiness left. please recharge."?
something like that?
huh... not big surprise...
but... can't i...
just for once...
spend a year of my life...
without even having to fake my smile through the happiness?
it hurts... and if my frens find out i'm faking...
it'd hurt them... i dun wanna hurt them...
my friends smiles are where i take refuge...

where i hide from my life...

and the reality that i...

am just another insignificant being in this world...

i kill you like tempest...

2009-07-28T06:29:00.000-07:00

i dunno... i've been getting this violent tendencies...
have i been playing too much prototype?
i wanna kill whoever pisses me...
i wanna free run up buildings...
i wanna jump from the fifteenth storey and land safely...
i wanna do what Alex Mercer can do...

then again... i whacked several groups today...
Marc and Alex helped me(no... not Alex Mercer)...
so i wasn't too badly injured...
but that was a lot of mood spoilers in one single day...
but somehow... i just... was... happy through it all...
violent tendencies again...

holdon... is it... no way... it can't be...
i tot i put him away already...
i'm sure i put him somewhere he can't get out and gain control over me again...
if he really is back... damn he's pissed...
for all y'all who are reading this...
i'm refering to my alter ego...
namely sir HaTe... yes... its my nickname...
given to me by Ira herself who first quelled the beast...
he is really violent and does not hestitate to put you to sleep the violent way...
but somehow... Ira got his attetion and made him go away...
she's really good with this psychology stuff...
<3 her so much for that...

but somehow... i've found my passion to draw again...
the world of imagination just keeps flowing out from me...
and i get excited and cannot hold a pencil and look at a sketchbook...
coz i'll keep drawing and drawing and drawing till i feel like playing games again...
ah... zzz... i spoke too much now haven't i?
time for me to go... hopefully HaTe doesn't bother me while i'm in a weak state now...

H - Hateful
a - anger
T - Tensed
e - evil

BEST SATURDAY EVER!!!

2009-07-25T07:40:00.000-07:00

woohoo!!
i got the day off today like awesome la...
today was complete awesome la...

we were given the day off to go explore more of our work grounds...
and guess what? we have a dance room! woohoo!
awesome... i was given dancing lessons by Marc... awesome man he...
he dance breakdance like no one's business...
dance dance dance like crazy till noon...
then ira brought us(there were 8 of us including my twin bosses) to the work kitchen...
its like... woah... ira's dad is just too rich man!! hahaa...
that old man bought a total of four apartments that are huge!
and combined it all to be our workplace!
so we got like... a dance room, a huge ass kitchen, a game room...
and not forgetting our huge ass work space... and personal bedrooms too...
woohoo... lucky my work squad only has eight people including my twin bosses...
we all danced to songs like 'peaches and cream - 112','try again - aaliyah', 'hot stuff - craig david','beat it - fallout boys',' the river - good charlotte','no air - jordin sparks feat chris brown','real love - massari','seoleim - NDlee'(not many people will know this song) and a whole lot of others...
marc and jason are super jealou coz i get to slow dance with my twin bosses(who happen to be my beloved ex's)...
hahaa... XP
oh ya... the best part... marc go and put on caramel dansen...
hahaa... everyone of us danced the exact dance steps liao...
hahaa... ira and dee so cute when they did it...
only sad part was that i forgot to take photos of the whole thing...
my phone in my bag sial... of coz ah forget...

anywayz... am at home now... hungry, tired and super sleepy...
somehow, bashing up the two mood spoilers who tried to hit on my twin bosses didn't spoil my mood one bit...
i guess i found back my spirit huh?
signing off... zzz... so tired...

the longest IIT cheer!

2009-07-22T17:02:00.000-07:00

i say IT, you say eh, you say eh, you say eh
i say IT, you say Bah,, you say Bah, you say Bah
i say IT, you say eh, i say IT, you say Bah
i say IT, you say ehhhh bah

under neh, baboon nee a bah
apple, apple, orange hor le gah

yuan de bu na, bian de na
bian de bu na, yuan de na
yuan de na, bian de na
yuan de, bian be
tong tong na

WAAA GA LI AH! WOO!
WA GA LI AH MOTHER! WOO!
WA GA LI AH MOTHER GER LAPA! GER LAPA!

once my mother and my father under mango tree ah
said my father to my mother 'will you marry me ah?'
went to temple, went to church and went to mosque to pray ah
said my mother to my father 'darling, okay ah!'

two verses of chinese poetry i can't remember what...
T-T

starlight, star bright
first star i see tonight
i wish i may, i wish i might
i wish i had my wish tonight, WOOSH!!!

if you wanna know how the whole cheer goes...
tell me...
though i may not do it as spiritedly as i would if i were happier...

biggest mistake of my life...

2009-07-18T23:49:00.000-07:00

i wanna stop being someone i'm not...

i dun wanna try to be smart...
i dun wanna try to be cool...
i dun wanna have to try to fall in love...
i dun wanna have to do work coz someone tells me to...

i wanna start being me...
i wanna start to read books coz i liked it...
i wanna draw again coz i liked it...
i... wanna go out with you again coz i liked it...
i... dun wanna have to pretend to be happy...
i... wanna leave my face to be what it wants to be...

if i dun smile, dun force me to...
if i dun frown, dun force me to...
if i'm not happy, dun make me...
if i'm not angry, dun make me...

just leave me alone...
coz being a loner is my nature...
i'll do what i want to, when i want to...
but i wanna stop hurting...
i dun wanna look at you and always feel like crying...
i dun wanna love you and never get to go out with you...
i dun wanna see you frown coz i'm being moody again...
i dun wanna see you cry coz i'm fighting again...

my biggest mistake was getting to know you...
i'm sorry for promising you many things and forcing you to do the same...
i'm sorry i bound my life to you...
if i could turn back time and take back my words, would you still live the same?

Memories of a child

2009-07-16T22:47:00.000-07:00

kids always have the most fun right?
so why am i, denied my childhood and dreaming to have one now...
forcefully led to live the adult life from the moment i was free?

since i first started life, it has been harsh on me...
my own father nearly killed seven times from my age 3-6...
never knew or saw much of him from 6-9...
then i nvr saw him at all...
what was i to him?
this day, eight years ago...
i cried my first tears as an adult...
denied of a happy childhood...
denied of my father...
i began to think, live, breathe and act like an adult...

thinking bout it...
it was hard at first...
it nvr got easier...
i couldn't make much friends...
i didn't have much to say bout myself...
pffft...
the first girl who ever hated me ended up as my lover...
on the same date, five years later...
hah... meeting her was like meeting a devil...
but even in the hate that sparked our relationship, i loved her for being so fierce...
for forcing me to open up to her...
if i nvr met her, i think i would still be a very shy and keep to myself kind of person...
hahaa...

now... even while i'm seventeen... i still wanna be seven again...
i wanna be a kid... the kid that had never seen the light of the world...
i wanna stop being an adult for a while...
and let the kid in me enjoy the life he nvr had...

can i?
if yes, will you help me let him see the wonders and the love of the world?
if yes, will you please, please let him have a most wonderful memory of you?
if you will help me make the kid in me smile, i will grateful to you...
eternally, eternally... till my deathbed, forever, i will only show you my smile...

dear God,

i know i'm not that good a believer...

but pls, pls...

will you grant me this one simple wish?

Woo!!! Swimmin has never been so fun!!!

2009-07-14T06:51:00.000-07:00

i wanna be that cool geek in your heart...

today... was a waste of time... went to school for one hour of lecture...

damn i wanted to ponteng so much...

anyway... i went to school at eight... lecture at twelve... huh?!?

crap... nvr mind... i go sleep at library...

then ah... i modded some songs la... bored ma...

hahaa... some were weird... some were cool...

after lecture... we went to How Guan house...

huge la sia... got pool some more...

sial ah... his room got three beds sia... what the fish...

i'm jealous... i'm jealous...

anyway, he got a projector room where we played guitar heroes in the basement...

i suck... but i'll practice... watch out for my vengeance...

he had a pool table too...

i play very taiko kia sia... all my goals super duper freaking taiko...

sorry ah tree... i win you many times... hahaa... XP

then we went SWIMMING!!!

i suck at swimming now... lolz... no stamina...

a lot of funny thing happen sia... hahaa...

tree... post the vid le... hahaa...

some random pics we took... four only... coz i forgot to camwhore...

sorry ah i dun have muscles to show off...

samurai wannabe sia...

cha... i lost to tree... dammit...

badass sey...

shial ah... got four pack...

action only...

badass warriors always pose like this right?

here's some i tot'd make you smile a bit...

2009-07-12T01:40:00.000-07:00

huh... damnz... i dun geddit...
school is starting to lighten its load on me...
but i dun understand a lot of things...
haiz... back to my games to relieve me of some stress...
anyway...

frustration of the chibi warrior
boomer fail
hunter fail...
hunter epic fail... kena bash in a crowd...
SMOKER EPIC FAIL!!!
IT SUICIDED!!!

ah... i think... i under... i... dun geddit...

2009-07-10T09:21:00.000-07:00

school sucks now...
i rock at Java... finally some understanding...
it's a B**** anyway...
Java test was quite easy... well...
LiangHui did help me a lot...
and damn... my file still with her...
idiot sia me... go leave at school...
lucky Tree help me find... Thanks tree!

WDS was shit sia just now...
dun understand how the hell to apply in my web design...
but i know the frigging concept she's telling us...
haiz... haiz...
should i just go back to typing out HTML's? wait... that sucks worse...
anyway... HAHAA!!! Syirah, Kage, Zul...
NICE CONVO!!! HAHAA!!! random shit sia...
damn... damn... i laugh till stomach pain sia...
eh... Kage... nice one ah... i almost puke out my dinner sia dat site...

anyway... i lost all myL4D screenshots...
dunno where the hell they go... :'(
but here are three i took in about five mins...
witness the madness that i play all the time... on EXPERT difficulty...
which means... they deal 15-20 damage per hit...
and in this crowd... you dun wanna get hit...

sial ah... safe room also kena attack!
in case you can't see, dats 223 headshot...
total kills for one checkpoint was 984

here's a vid of some people getting owned... laugh your ass off at the vid peep...

prototype screen shotz...

2009-07-08T17:55:00.000-07:00

banzai... banzai...
awesome graphics...
cool gameplay...
what else... screenshot spree lor... hahaa...
have fun viewing...

gliding is cool... and yes, i'm disguised as a soldier...

i swipe, you die...

judgement!

i just look weird in this pose... like trying to shit while in air...

JUDGEMENT ++!!!

i'ma usin mah heat vision to pawn you noobz...

JUDGEMENT WHIP!!!

i love to spam this skill...

you shud be able to tell by now...

i make the military spend billions just TRYING to kill me...

but they have nvr succeeded...

RIIIIPPP YOUR MA!!!

no vids la... not yet at any rate... later when i spam L4D pics...

i spam L4D vids too... vids of ownage...

XP
XD
XP
XD
XP
XD
XP

it feels good to be free...

2009-07-07T06:41:00.000-07:00

i dun geddit...
ira... how do you always recover so fast whenever we fight and you end up broken hearted?
keh... your special ability one might say... hahaa

anyway... freedom of being single again...
never tot i'd ever feel it...
no offense my queen... XP
but i love it... no more having to worry bout how my other is doing...
no more having to make time in the middle of the night just to date her...
coz i really got no time in the morn... bummer...

and finally... some cool-ass games to play... woohoo!
my many thanks to:
1) Ira - for getting for me a hard drive... so sweet of you...
2)Justin - for giving me transformers 2 the game... su-goi!
3)Zul - for giving me Prototype... KAWAIII!!!
4) all other frens for being there for me...
(idk? i just felt like thanking everyone)

i got no more vids la... forgotten all the noce ones... pfft...
anyway... next post, i show you some cool ass screenshots of the game Prototype that i took... cheerios...

i... i'm sorry to have wasted your time...

2009-07-04T09:03:00.000-07:00

hah... this sucks... nothing went right today...
nothing at all...
guess i'm just another guy to her after all...
too immature to have you by my side...

forgive me...
i can't be that dream you have...
i can't make you smile like you did before...
i can't give you the things you want in life...
and i definitely don't deserve to see your beautiful smile anymore...

i broke your heart one too many times now...
if you still have any love for me left, forget it... pls...
i dun deserve you...
nor do i want to break your heart ever again...
i'm sorry to have wasted the past few years of your love life...
i'm sorry to have made you cry...
i'm sorry that i was never the winner you wanted me to be...
i'm sorry to have made you love me...
i never meant to hurt you...
i just wanted to see you smile...
the love between us was never meant to be...
for our differences were far too drastic...

please forget me as soon as you can...
please stop crying over me...
i dun deserve your tears...
i dun deserve your love...
whatever between us has gone now...
between you and me...
nothing more exists...
smile your beautiful smile for the one who deserves you more...
live your life without anymore regrets...
for once tomorrow shines anew...
the love between is no more...

bestbeloved forgive me...

i regret wasting your time...

:')

last post for this month... maybe...

2009-07-03T08:22:00.000-07:00

well... i'm stuck up to my neck with work... still...
and i have little time to spare for my blog...
sorry love... i'm just too busy... too much work stacking up before i can clear em...

anyway, i'm gonna pretend to be a smart ass and leave words of advice here for all to see on my blog while i leave it untouched and dusty for a bit... here goes...

1. When in doubt, follow your heart and always go the path you most believe in.
2. If clueless and lost, look to family and friends for assistance... Often, the ones we neglect are the ones that can help us the most...
3. Appreciate all friends... Regardless close or not... You never know when they will go...
4. Hold on to happy and precious memories... They can always bring back a smile or lighten your heart when you are feeling down...
5. Love your family, they know you the best... Maybe beyond what you think they know of you...
6. Do your tasks with a passion... With passion, tasks become very much simpler...
7. Live life without regrets... Don't wait, just go for gold... Don't care what others might say...
8. Have fun in life... But always remember that God is watching and you'll have to answer to Him sooner or later...
9. Take good care of your body, mind and soul... Don't let your gift from God go to waste... Love your abilities and make do with your weaknesses...
10. Last but not least, stay optimistic always... Happiness starts with as little as a smile... your views on life change with your mood... With optimism, problems come to an end much, much more quickly...

And guys, trust me... I know these work... Coz i live by these rules every living moment of my life... It's hard to be optimistic... But wouldn't life be better if we took each day with a smile?

Think about it...

Till further notice, Hers faithfully

Muhammad Taufiq Bin Yahya

a.k.a sirHaTe

i dun wanna blog anymore...

2009-07-02T06:57:00.000-07:00

grades suck... i got two A's, two C's and a stupid F...
gg... Liang Hui's angry coz i shud have done better to set example for the rest of the class...
damnzzz... and camp STEEL has been cancelled...
i just lost my mood for anything... everything i want this yr...
i dun get... so i'll stop wanting...
and see what happens from there...

blogs crashing with my DEAD-lines so i wun be updating my blog for a while...
bb... Q_Q
taking care ppl...
dun kena H2N2like me... gg...
see ya around in a month or so...

so bored... sianz... sianz...

2009-07-01T04:29:00.001-07:00

kkayz... nowadays i am frigging boredz... and i am running out of vids and pics to take...
so gg to dat... zzz...
and if you dun already know, i'm dead bored and super DEAD-lined this week... gg...
but i still got time to DOTA, L4D and play the awesome-mes game ever... for now...
TRANSFORMERS 2 super rocks la!!! i'm having a ball of a time playing it...
and i'm not lagging... NICE!!!
onto the pics... decipher yourself... gg... zzz...
gg... my mouse just spoilt...
yawnzzz... its okay... mouse at sch ten bucks only...

my table is as messy as ever... gg...

drawing lessons! these were from mon... finally upload...

gemuk!!! hahaa... lazy cat...

she's being lazy and dun want come in...

OI! GEMUK!

just nice can fit in the drain-thingy

hurry! come into the lift with me...

tak malas plak...

she's lost... aw... poor thing...

now she's scared

never tot i'd see such a sky... cool sia...

got shadow of the clouds cast over the clouds...

video time!!! i dunno wat to put already sia...

english version! i understand and memorise already... lolz...

ah... i forgot to mention... all ncc members... please take note... there will be no ncc camps or activities related to HQ till sept... sorry my beloved part B's but dat means your camp next week cancelled till further notice liao...

hmmm? clueless beyond measure...

2009-06-30T06:05:00.001-07:00

zzz... no pics today... i didn't take any... zzz...
too lazy and tired to do so... zzz...
feel sick everyday knowing that this is DEAD-line week... zzz...

!@#$%^&*(!@#$%^&*@#$%^&

note to self...
never leave work undone ever again...
damn... i failed term test for INCG...
didn't do so great for WDS either...
just hope my PRSP and CMATHS marks bring me skyhigh... zzz... zzz...

haiz... i'm getting more and more clueless as the days go by... zzz...
i get what the teachers are saying but... zzz...
i just get it all mixed up in my mind... zzz... sucks...zzz...
damn... i know why i'm feeling this way... zzz... shit...

ahahaa... the old weakness... forever and evermore my cause of death... zzz...
anyway, screw dat... dun worry bout me (though hardly anyone does) and watch this vid...

super cute... i <3 this vid... zzz...

hiazzz... what the hellzzz...

2009-06-29T06:26:00.000-07:00

grzzz... can't upload piczzz...
damnzzz...damnzzz... after all dat effort to take gemuk and KoKo's pics...
grzzz... grzzz...

anyway... i'm too tired and lazy today to blog...
and got lots of work to do too...
zzz... damnzzz... damnz...

i'll see what i can do bout the picz... maybe another dayz...
zzz... i missed my chance to go back to PRSS todayzz...
got talk on social ettiquetez... zzz...
maybe another dayz...

i miss NCC... zzz... zzz... zzz...

i want to see her... pls?

2009-06-28T00:00:00.000-07:00

yawnz... woke up at two today... still tired... bones aching coz i slept for too long...
13 hours i think... no wait... from yest 2300 till today 1400... er... dats...15 hours...
damn... note to self... dun sleep too long ever again...
now busy at work finishing up my INCG board game...
zzz... deadline tmr at 0915... wish me and my group luck ppl...
just want to rest at home today...
so lazy to go out... but Dee's forcing me too... damn...
i hate her for being able to force me to do stuff...

one of my works for VisLiStob... nice?

i wanna see my dear... but fate wun allow it...

damnz...

yeah... saved from Dee by my aunt... zzz...
but have to do chores instaed... so i slacked...
KoKo!!! hahaa... here's a pic of my two fav cats... KoKo and Gemuk...

fyi, only i can hold KoKo like this...
Gemuk!!! she's so fat and still eating...

and then i went home and found out just how much i wanted to see my dear...

haiz... damn... i miss her so much... being with her was like a dream in the past...

if only that dream would last... i'd be so much more happier...

anyway, enuff being sad... video time...

enjoy learning english guys... XD

love is complicated and painful...

2009-06-27T07:01:00.000-07:00

first of all... i wanna say sorry for yest's post... i found the pics today...
secondly... sorry i'm late... just came home myself...
pics from frid first... then i talk bout today kay?
kay... super...

fail camera... record the ceiling

the class has nvr before been so empty...

this row is supposed to have ppl...

there was nvr this many black screens in class...

then, on to today... yeah yeah... YOUTH festival...

i only sad no one came to take photos... well y'all got your stufffs to do...

so, it okay... anyway...

my costume from ten till like three was being a musketeer... the costume is super short dah...

show my ankles only... haiz haiz... no photos of me coz i nvr bring mah phone around...

only after i changed back to civvie's then got photos...

ULTRAMAN!!! how cool is that man?

CLONE TROOPERS!!! SU-GOI NE!!!

CHEF BOYARDEE!!! his head is super the heavy i tell you...

street performers... super cool...

sorry no vid of em... -_-

ultraman lineup + IRONMAN!!! SUGOI!!!

the Joker... is not smiling...

IRONMAN!!!

swat team cosplay... cool or what?

BATMAN!!! and IRONMAN in the bg...

SU-GOI NA!!!

i was aiming for the clone troopers... serious...

trekkies!!! what the fish...

Darth Vader so CUTE!!! HAHAA!!!

idk? my fren ask me take...

COOL LA SIA!!!

and obviously after a hard day at the festival...

which i'm surprised a lot of ppl took photos with me as a musketeer...

obviously, this sai kang warrior has to rest...
but i decided i shud just tell y'all what happened here to day...

i'm tired kay...

and now for the vid... enjoy...

sorry if it trauma's anyone... you can flame me for it if you want...

today... i slacked completely and utterly...

2009-06-26T06:46:00.000-07:00

i completely slacked at school today... at VisLit first...
i was the only one with my work completely out and ready... so i slacked totally for four hours... su-goi na...
but it wasn't much fun...
i have grown utterly bored of my games...
damn... even left 4 dead lost its appeal to me...

then lunch... i was a bad boy today... nvr go prayers...
but i have my reasons kay...
so shut up...
after lunch was PRSP... damn...
i completely hate Java...
not that i dunno how to do...
i just can't rmbr which codes are for what...
DAMMIT!

after PRSP, where i did only a bit of mind boggling work and used up all my unagi...
we went to WDS...
eh guys of C236... thanks a lot la...
almost everyone not there...
the place was empty enuff for it to be up to me, justin and ojii-san to be the noisiest ppl in the class... anyway... it was very slack lesson and very fun...
so you all missed your chance...
tch... i'm falling sick again... damn i hate this...

i'm done talking bout today... so here's my vid... sorry no photos... i just dun have anything to take...

laugh your ass off at this...

never tot i'd miss you so much...

2009-06-25T03:08:00.000-07:00

today was fcuked upside, downside, left, right and center...
haiz... haiz... haiz... all lessons except one bloody lecture cancelled... bummer...
so i went to school like DAMN early... did my VisLitStob project... i show you...

den ah... the lecture for one hour which i completely did NOT pay attention to...
i couldn't... i miss her so much i can't stop thinking bout her... damn...
so i played games to take my mind off her... damn... she's not gonna be happy bout that...

then after that went to eat lunch... had to pack and go coz the canteen was bloody full...
why do ppl jam my school canteen just coz got aircon... why dun they go AS and eat?

then we tried to get started doing the project... we really did...
but we just didn't for some reason... we kept on delaying even after we moved to aircon place...
then we finally got started doing our work... like, finally man...
then that guy think he so smart and go complain bout my work... he never even do shit for the project and dare to just complain!!!
dun misunderstand... i dun mind comments... but he was complaining as though he got assist by at least giving me instructions how to do...
WHAT THE @#$%^&*!
he has not contributed significantly to the project sia!!! FCUK!!!
i got damn pissed... so i just said to him, "YOU SO SMART YOU DO AH!"
then he finally shut the F up and did some work... grr... grr...

why did i have to pick him as a group mate based on friends fact?

useless bugger...

justin,zul and me did 99%of the bloody project sia...

grr... grr...

i really need to be more patient... losing my mind over this...

anyway, i realised all the way through... just how much my heart ached for my dear...

damn... damn... i'm too cowardly and idiotic to tell her i love her... haiz... haiz...

dun say i'm an idiot for posting this online... but no one ever knows what the hell or who the hell i'm talking bout unless i have specifically told em before...

haiz... anyway... here's my promised video... enjoy...

i hope this vid puts a smile on your faces... =)

today... going to school was a bad idea...

2009-06-24T02:02:00.001-07:00

okay... first of all, today no pics...
sorry guys... but i went to watch movie and went to waste time at school -_-"

for all who haven't watchwed transformers2, WATCH IT!!!
it's freaking cool and awesome... i want watch again! who want come with? message or PM me yeah?

and what a surprise... my transformers toy is actually a Decepticon who converted and is an Autobot actually...
like... WOOHOO!!! and he's an old man... go oji-san!!!
after that ah... supposed to have one hour lesson at school la...
PRSP, i tot i'd go coz i suck at JAWA...
but what the hell la... we sit inside for twenty mins, ANTONIO still not there..
!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*

yes... i'm pissed... so i walked off and am home now... going to ZZZ unless Dee wants to go out with me at night...

anyways... video time!!! sorry Yani... i gonna start posting Jinnai Tomonori vids already... so find other vids to post... XP

he rocks at entertaining people... hahaa... Jinnai Tomonori FTW!!!

i'm still seven!!! board game cafe!!! kena owned!!!

2009-06-23T06:21:00.000-07:00

today... was a fun day... nothing much to say... i'll let my pics do the talking...
but today was crazily fun sia... played pool after board game cafe...
i got ALOT of taico shots...
wasted... no video... sedih... X(

i was bored... so i drew...
he emo-ing coz i nvr play with him... X(

BABY BUMBLEBEE!!! HAHAA!!!

didn't ttake his legs out... we forgot to... so cute sia!!! XD

they decided to emo at my lappytop coz we nvr play with them nearly whole day...

i forgot to take out his legs... LOL! so cute...

tantruming now coz we LMAO-ing

HI-YAH!

if you can't see, they're holding hands

now, onto pics at the board game cafe... hahaa... i played RISK! twice... and got pawned coz ppl ganged me... i really wanna bash up someone coz he's such a sore loser... want to win only...

WHAT THE FISH?!?

but still... i prevailed... and Hadi was my advisor after i massacred him...

cool right? wait till you see the bottom part...

she succeeded in getting it out! damn... (-_-)

and this is what the bottom part looks like... what the fish right?

now... on to my second round of risk... where i kena owned... but it was just so we could make it a fast game... otherwise... i dun think i would have lost that round ah... my defense so damn tight...

OMGWTFBBQ?!? BOSS FIGHT!!!

what the fish... the boss has a car now...

many thanks to Raihaan though i dun think he's reading this for letting me borrow his cap for a while... i look so MAFIA... though it would be cooler if my hair were a bit longer...

when i lost, my king kena taken prisoner... WTF!

now... for the video as i promised i'd put every post... dun worry... i got a lot of stuff to put...
Yani, you'll love this vid...

HaHaa!!! rmbr this vid Yani?

today... we turned seven again!!!

2009-06-22T02:01:00.000-07:00

today was the day i turned seven again... hahaa... it's fun being seven...
and i suddenly find i'm good at flying a jet...
lol... arcade game only... -_-'''

i suck at everything else =)

so the day starts off at school and i find out...

what the fish... i haven't done a single piece of homewrok and all my projects are all over the place... what the fish... ZZZ... i am in trouble... as always...

my standard table... messy like hell...
everyone's discussing their projects with mr garry...

i'm supposed to be in this group... i'm slacking XP

yet another group hard at work...

after that... had lunch at school... i lost my mood to eat again... went off to play arcade at tampines mall...

like... WHEE!!!

then me, zul and justin went to TOYS R US!!!

it is the COOLEST place on earth to be...

thus, we turned seven again... at least, me and zul did...

we bought some cool Transformers toys... and went to Carl's junior just to play with it for while...

so cute... i want...

our new pencilbox friends

Zul chose to get Bumblebee

so i got this Decepticon guy coz he looked cool yo...

TRANSFORM!!!

just tot i'd make him look a bit more ninja

then i went off to IKEA! coz the bus arrived just nice and i could fit in the bus and got me a hotdog... ZZZ...

then went back to school for my anime drawing lessons... now being nagged at by mom coz i haven't taken a shower yet... XP

shaddap! i dun wanna hear your comments... XP

a cool vid for you ppl to enjoy... rmbr to off my blog music first...

nice right? XD

Today... I watched an old couple get married... Again...

2009-06-21T02:54:00.000-07:00

i had two options this morning... go around town with Dee or go out with the family to see my aunt's wedding anniversary in style...
no shit... it was cool... they married each other again today...

so before anything began... playtime with KoKo!!! (pics below)

he bit me several times when i tried bringing him back indoors... owies... :'(

yes, he's lost

ah! he found me...

first time outdoors and he's tired

took a cab to the destination... i was about to fall asleep when this pic was taken... so i smiled... XP

on site, a lot of things happened... boring stuff... btw, the photos are in the wrong order...

pics... nah...

idk why but what the heck eh?

the bride!

the star arrives! cool... blind man as an escort.. hee hee... XP

she's my mom for those who dun already know...

i just happened to be smiling...

apa tu?

we're bored and dun have a seat... >:O

the wedded oldies and me cuz's

and this is how you own...

ooo... the food looks nice...

time to PSP jam... bored waiting sia...

nah... random fun vid

it's an easy dance and i'm addicted to this song... XD

great start, suckish middle, ending how?

2009-06-20T01:31:00.000-07:00

hmph...
spent my morning just realizing how all 12 of my lovers are richer than me and how pathethic that makes me look...
damn
F, bloody hell...
haiz haiz haiz...
anyway, spent my morn with Dee at Pasir Ris park beach...
juust watched her play with the water and sand...
god... she's so darn beautiful... i think i just realized that...
my phone's spoilt coz Dee kicked it outta my hands into sand when i tried to take a photo of her... bitch

how i wished Dee was more gentle and ladylike like ira... =(

after that... work... met a complete and utter asshole who all the credit for MY work... i really felt like throwing him off the building... well i did anyway... i pushed him off the second floor... he fell on his arm, lucky ass... i can't be bothered with that kind of people except to kill them...

but then again i can't risk Ira or Dee wanting to kill me coz i broke a law

now i just need to see how my day will end... if anything new comes up... i'll be damn sure to type and bitch about it... i'm in a severe mood anyways... so i know i saw some ppl on my way back from work, i'm damn sorry for not acknowledging your presence... was in too foul a mood and thought i'd end up antagonizing you...

blah movie sucks

2009-06-19T05:06:00.001-07:00

kay... idk what to say...
hahaa... what the hell la taufiq...
anyway... watched drag me to hell yesterday... ZZZZ...
boring cept for the fact that everytime i'm bout to snooze, the movie gets scary...
SHOCKING... at least it kept me on my toes...

MO'RF'ER...(fill in the blanks)

kay watever... afterwards, i went to chill with my Dearest darling Dee... she's so sweet... blah... irritating more like...
went home and slept till today i think seven...
woke up in the middle of the night coz i miss my fren badly... sad face...