School

GAH!!!
This week is cui week sia...
walao...
all projects need to finish doing by this week sia...
either this week or next week...
dammit...
dammit...


i'm depressed...
again...
i wanna go out...
with her especially...
she brightens up my life no matter what happens to me...
she brings me to heaven when i'm down and can't pull myself out...



oh my dear darling...
can i go out with you someday?
pls? <3~

I'm afraid...

i wanna be with you...
i truely, truely do...
i wanna be that guy that brings your wonderful smile around...
to be the guy that keeps you laughing...
to be there for you when you're down...
to support you in times of your greatest need...



but i'm too afraid my immaturity will cost me our closeness...
i dun want things between us to break...
the way we are now puts me in a very comfortable position...
the thought of loving you nvr crossed my mind...
but now my heart longs for it...
calling you my dear, is different from calling other girls my dear...
for others, it just means... my dear friend... as all friends are...
but you... who is truely precious to me...
when i say my dear, i long for you to be mine...
i can nvr be calm around you...
i'm always wanting to make you smile and stay happy...
i wanna make you so happy that in your time with me...
i make you forget your wordly sadness...
even if just for a while...
even if its just an illusion i cast on you...
i wanna make you feel like the happiest and luckiest girl in the whole wide world...











i really love you hon...
i'll nvr give up on you...
no matter what...
only if you tell me to my face...
that you have no feelings whatsoever for me...
then will i break down...and possibly try to will myself to live without you...
and cope with nvr being able to have you as my own...

I miss you

Hmmm... Next year...
I'll be one of the bigger powers in NCC...
In PRSS, i'm the only CLT left...
dunno if shima is still on or not...
Next year...
The mark of a new training regime for the part C next year...
I'm Kinda disappointed in the boys unit...
My girls...
Well... The girls have always been able to fend for themselves...
So I'm not too worried for them...
Hahaa... A certain baby is scared of my plan for next year...
Note * Hon, i wun be so intense on the girls...

But next year, It will be a complete change how i take control in PRSS...
Next years part 'C' will get it from me...
mainly i wun be in action...
but if i raise my head to actually take part in the training...
They. Will. D.I.E...
short and sweet isn't it?

oh... and apparently...
I got my baby pwincess addicted to my fav k-pop music too...
=3
awesome songs man...