Seems Like...

Each time I befriend someone...
I always have to remember the fact that...
No matter what...
Guy or Girl...
This friendship will not be one I won't hurt myself with...

Its lonely being me...
No siblings to love...
No dad to fuss over sports with...
An unreasonable when angry mum to love...
A family that accepts no failures from me...
I dunno who to talk to...
I just wanna talk to someone...
Get some advice...
Someone who will pry from me the feelings i keep inside that harm me...
Or at least feel how its like... To have someone listen to my aches and pains...
But then again... When people wanna listen...
I always don't want to trouble them with my burdens...
After all... My goal is to spread joy and happiness to the world...
Even if this goal would cost me my life which i know it will eventually...

I wanna fall in love...
Ira and Dee... When i think about it...
Everything between us seems so...
Superficial...
Sure... Feelings were involved...
But... It didn't feel like anything special between us...
It was just loving for the sake of making life a tiny bit better...
My heart most aches now when the three girls i loved most...
Are dating other guys and are happy...
I'm happy for them and wish them all the best... Honestly, I do...
But then again... I am just a kid...
Who will I kid, if i say it doesn't hurt me one single bit?

Hah... Look at me...
Babbling on and on like a fool...
Like the kid i was, am and always will be...
If there's one thing that i've always been certain about...
Is that I was born and bred an Observer of life...
I am not fine with it...
But i will live this way...
Because no matter what... I will not deny...
Seeing people smile because of something I did or say...
Is what lights up my life at the end of the day...